hey y'allll.
i just got my phone back.. yiiipppeee!!!
i still need to activate it but thats okay.
thats the easy part. lol.
anywhoo, i had a really weird dream last night.
like it was really weird.
i was running from the cops and my friends were like hiding me and i like didnt ever go home. and stuff and i had to talk to this cop and went to court and stuff. it was extremely weird i swear.
im going with my grandma to her friends house today, she goes to visit her every wed. and i've only been there once. but, she is a real nice lady.
i dont know..
eric is going to go out with some little 8th grader named desiree.
that doesnt really surprise me though.
lol.
i dont really care anymore.
its just enough drama.
for everything.
i miss him though, and am constantly thinking about him.
and im tierd of my friends rubbing it in my face. that they are with their prescious boyfriends and girlfriends,
i dumped vince for eric.
and i liked him when i was with cody too.
its retarted.
i dont even know anymore.
KJADHFKJAHDSFKJHASKJDFHSKDFHKJ!!!!
-love dani

i am so tierd of everything.
loving the same person and never getting to be with him.
im tierd of wanting the same things but never getting them.
i just wish i knew what to do somehow?

i dont understand. i try so hard to make everything ok. and its like it never gets any better. ppl just keep getting more confusing and life gets harder.

i love him i do. i dont want to anymore.
i like everything about him. even the bad things, only because i have learned to except them. but for those same reasons.. is why i cant be with him. and i hate it.

i want to change the things that have happened. because somehow, i keep letting them hold me back.
i want to move on past all the bullshit.

but it never gets any betttterr.
it just keeps getting harder and harder.

i want to just end all the drama. and stop living life like its worth nothing.
its worth alot.

i want to quit crying myself to sleep.
and i want to stop everything.
i just got to figure out how.

i figured i should write in a different color right about now. haha.
so i am at my grandparents right now.
just got done watching v for vendetta it was really good. i diidnt really understand all of it. but i can say i understood a great deal of it.

hummm, so i really like being here. it gives me a feeling of relief and no anxiety. but you know? you cant always have everything. eventually, im going to have to go back home and eventually going to face reality. which is the most complicated part of life.

i wish reality was beetter than my dreams. but unfortunately, that is not how it works.
anywho, im bored.
and decided to post another.
hahahahaha.
and im on myspace.
surprise surprrise?
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

tierd.

tierd. super super tierd. im waiting for my cousin to get here. isabella sierra graham. she is a very cute little girl. but a BIGGGG brat. lett me tell you. crapp! i had a dream about eric last nite. and once again it was sexual thoughts that will never happen. hahah.

i dont know what im doing today. and i dont know how long im staying at my grandparents. hopefully forever. ;]
i cant stand my house anymore.
i just spent like 30 minutes making a damn playlist for my myspace.
that is called someone not having a life.

and i barely even get on my myspace anymore. its pretty funny.

shitt!
i need help guys.
i think im having a mental breakdown and i dont know how long its going to last this time. :D

im going crazy thinking about all this shit.

i want to be with eric.
sooo soo bad.

but im tierd of giving his ass chances. he dont ever listen to me.

i wish i knew what to do about my family situation and living situation.. too.

just got done watching the movie. veryyy gory and yucky.
but it was a great story.
all about getting back to his wife and sons.
and he fought and went through the worst pain a person could go through. and dealed with it.
to get back to the love is his life.
that was def. a four star movie.
i would say.
exceppt for the whole talking in mayan thing.
and watching subtitles.
lol

i really want to have sex. again. with this guy i have been liking.
but i dont want him to hurt me anymore...
and i dont know what to do?
ggrrrrr.
and i have been having some problems with protecting myself.
and i have had a few scares.
shhhiittt.

i am watching apocolypto right now.
its freaking crazy.
lol.
ajkdfajkdfhkasdfh.
geeesssh